The things people say....

Maybe because I am back at work now (amongst the real world and not the nice, safe harbor of my home), I have been getting some of the funniest comments on my belly. I am right at 31.5 weeks- still at least a good 7 weeks from delivery I would hope. I am not too self conscious about the fact that I am big girl these days. I have a mirror and I know, so it cracks me up that people feel the need to comment on the obvious. Every day I can count on getting..."any day now." Nope- I still have 2 months until my due date. "Are you sure you are not having twins?" Well my doctor who spent many years in medical school is pretty sure there is only one. And it goes on and on.... My favorite are usually from men. I guess they have no idea what to say so they just kind of stare and make some ridiculuous comment. Truly, it is ok not to say anything at all. See, look up, see....ah there it is my head, that contains my same brain- I can still carry a normal conversation that does not revolve around the size of my belly. People are crazy....

Last week, I had to do a large presenation for faculty and administrators. It was my first "performance" in my 3rd trimester and it was the first time that many of my colleagues have seen me since early May (I've changed just a little since then :) I was presenting on a "hot" topic that usually pushes some buttons and raises some debate. Nope, not this time, instead everyone in the audience just looked at me with pitty. Maybe it was do to the fact that I was gasping for air like I had just ran a marathon- I am pretty sure the baby has taken up every single bit of room so that my stomach and diaphram are pushed up into my throat. Try giving an hour long speech in that condition without breathing heavy...it was rather embarassing. I finally had one lady mouth to me "just sit down." People are funny....

So talk of size is a big thing right now. Part of me does not think she will reach the proportions of her brother. We pulled out some pictures of me at 30 weeks with doodle and compared to 30 weeks now...let's just say if there is a difference it is that I am bigger now. yikes. I have not gained as much weight yet so that is a good sign, right? We are 90% sure that we are going to schedule a c-section. At this point, it just seems like the smart and safe thing to do. While I am not crazy about having a surgery, I think given my past experience it is the best for all of us. My doctor, while not requiring a c-section yet, recommends a c-section too. At my last appointment at 29 weeks, I was measuring 3 weeks ahead. I should have a sonogram each week starting at 35 weeks to monitor the size of miss Camy e. If she continues to be on track to be 8 lbs or more, doctor will go ahead and schedule a C-section prior to my due date just depending on size, development, etc... If she looks like she will be 7 lbs I would like to do a regular delivery. MSW and dr. don't fully agree with my thoughts on this and they may win out, but I just have hopes of having it that way. With doodle, he was immediately taken away and it was not until 8 hours later that I finally saw him. With a C-section, I assume I will be in recovery for some time after delivery. I just hope for that immediate bonding experience- I want to hold her right away, I want a delivery room and not an operating room. However, I have wrapped my brain around having a c-section and I am ok with it. In the end, I just want a healthy baby. However she comes will be just fine.

I do have an appointment this afternoon and I am a bit nervous. At my last appointment, DR. F mentioned doing the 3 hr. glucose test again at 32 weeks....no!!!! She is convinced that gestational diabetes is a concern for me. Couldn't it just be possible that I have big babies without that as a cause I ask??? Uggh! To go through that test again would be a drag. I'll do what I have to do to insure our health, but I am hoping my measurements are right at 31 weeks (which I guess is impossible unless I shrunk bc I was already at 32 weeks at last appointment, my blood pressure is on target and weight gain is low and I think in that case, she will not have me do the glucose test again. So pray, my friends!

I cannot wait to meet this baby girl. I cannot wait to see what she looks like, what color hair/eyes she will have, will she have the same birthmark that her daddy and doodle have? I long for the newborn days. I cannot wait to wrap her in a blanket and hold her all day long if that is what she wants. I cannot wait to wake up to her little cries in the night and anxiously pick her up to feed. I anticipate how quickly she will change and how fast the time will pass. I have about 30 photo shoots already lined up in my head for her. What an amazing gift God gives us. To be blessed with motherhood is such an honor. There are times I think my heart is about to explode with anticipation.